|NA_Biketour_2009_208 by Jole Kiraly, CCL|
“If you have men who will only come if they know there is a good road, I don't want them. I want men who will come if there is no road at all.” - David Livingstone
Helios Says: BRRAAAAAP!! BRAAAAAAP!! Hear that? That's the alarm ringing, early as shit and you were out partying the house down last night. That is how we're starting this one, all right!
Oh, and you're late.
Mars is making a strategic retreat out of Sagittarius, stuffing his suitcases as best he can, trying to get out of Vegas before casino security makes it up to his penthouse suite to collect on his severe debt, the size of several Balkan states' worth of GDP (I'm good for it you guys, I swear!!). Unfortunately, with his back against the wall, 40 stories up, he only has one place to go- back into Scorpio. Yes, everyone's favorite, blood-curdling torture den, the stagnant underworld he once called home.
This is the best news you will have all week. You see, apart from being where all the good stuff is (sex, passion, other peoples money, and not to mention all the riches of the earth [apart from oil, which Pisces gets for some reason. Go figure]), Scorpio gives one wonderful, uncomfortable and usually unwanted, yet still completely vital gift: The Truth; the Scorpio truth is one that hides nothing- it is the naked truth. Scorpio will expose the falsehoods, allowing you to take action.
Yes, you read that right; this is not going to be a sit-on-your-ass retrograde, oh no! You will need to make moves, and you will need to make them now, at the least opportune moment. You see, you are already feeling this. You are seeing the truth right NOW, seeing that there is a great deal that is just NOT working in your life. You are not the same person that you were 6 months ago, and the strategies developed then will not serve you now. Currently, you are being overwhelmed by the enormity of how much dysfunction you are facing, and you are frozen in place. You fear losing ground, so you refuse to work with the change that has already occurred. If you do this you will waste valuable time trying to defend a beachhead that you have already lost, and you will make far less headway towards your new goals than you would have otherwise.
There is another option- give up the high ground. The marginal, quantified success that you have made at great cost to you over this last year has been hard fought, I know- But its not the way. It has come at such a cost because you were fighting the way to get here, and you thought you were overcoming the odds. You thought it was what you wanted, you thought it was for the best- You were wrong. If you can face that, and you can accept it, you can change and move forward in the right way.
You faced the call last year to throw your middle fingers up and walk the path alone, daring you yo plunge into the unknown with no guarantees. It understandably terrified you, and you returned to safety, not knowing that you were running full-bore into a slow death, losing that precious progress that you had made. You went against your own best interest and acted against your own self-love. Of course, you didnt know this at the time- Now you do. The dysfunction you face is because of this, and it is also the solution to your problem: The areas in your life highlighted by the dysfunction you must correct by acting in your own best interest- By loving yourself first, and making the best choices accordingly, you will succeed. This will not be easy, and it will seem like you are surrendering. That is the fear mentality talking- Your fear of failure must be overcome here and now, because there is just no other way. Embrace what seems to be a failure, and fuck what everyone else thinks. Act in your own best interest, because you're going to die anyway- might as well be the one in the driver's seat!
"You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger." -Buddha
Talk about being on edge... We are being told two contradictory things from this planet. On one hand, we have the Saggo aspect urging us to move forward and start a new phase of our lives. It is the turning of the seasons in many ways for us right now. And then, on the other hand, Mars going into retrograde is telling us to HALT. It's feels like we are pressing the gas and pressing the brakes at the same time. It doesn't feel very pleasant, does it?
When Mars starts moving backwards in the sky (retrograde), we lose our vitality. We are in the shadow period for Mars retrograde as I write this. A looming silence is on the horizon, and it threatens to thwart all of our plans. It is a pretty well known thing that anything initiated during Mars in retrograde will likely fizzle out. Financial plans, new projects, romances, etc. Mars rules sex and industry, so expect setbacks in both of these areas. With Venus in sexfest Aries, this will bring very conflicting feelings.
Arguments are easy to come by during Mars retrograde. Everyone is constantly a hair away from losing their shit, and the smallest things seem to annoy us. Sounds aggravating, doesn't it? This aspect is not only rough for your personal life, but it can create major rage fests in the political sphere as well. With our current political climate, that doesn't sound very good.
We are going to want to change - be dying for it in fact. But Mars is going to tell us NO. Taurus season is coming, and we are going to need to slow the hot Aries energy. The 4 of Swords tells us that people will withdraw and obsess (which will get even worse once the sun moves into uber obsessive Taurus). We have a very hard full moon coming our way, and with Mars in this aspect, we are going to need to get as much healing done as possible. This is a time to rest - both mentally and physically. Be very delicate around those you love because the smallest annoyances can lead to giant flare ups. Be kind to each other. We are a long way from home and we are all we've got in this strange land.
Cards: The Wheel and 4 of Swords